pruesaysit

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who replied to my last post. It was really sweet to know there are lots of ppl who care about me.
Jimbo Jones came home this morning before going to work, and organised my medication for me, and put me to bed and I slept til about 6pm.
I'm feeling much better after a good sleep and taking my tablets.
I do feel really bad about the way I spoke to my mum this morning. I was a cow, and I feel really bad coz I know I upset her. I hate disappointing my mum. I don't think there's anything worse on Earth.
I'll talk to her tomorrow and apoligise again.

Anyway feeling much better, thanks again to everyone who commented or texted me. Love u all.

Prue

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm in tears and I'm a mess.
I ran out of medication and I know it's my own fault but everything just seemed to happen at once. Centrelink didn't send out my new health care card, my anxiety is sky high and the thought of trying to deal with any of their employees on the phone makes me feel physically sick with anxiety. I left the house for the first time last nite, and that was just go with joel coz he wanted to get smokes. While I was out I felt ill with anxiety. I was feeling dizzy.
I haven't been to sleep. The cats constant crying and meowing has got me on edge.
I don't want to be like this. I'm okay so often, but sometimes it just seems like my body breaks down and I just can't function.
I'm scared i'm never going to be able to function by myself again. I'm so scared I'm going to feel reliant on people for the rest of my life. I hate asking for help though.It just gets to a point where I'm basically melting down and I feel like I'm drowning, and it's only then that I ask for help.
i just want someone to tell me it's going to be okay and hug me.